I don’t know what got me thinking about it, but the last days or so I’ve really been thinking about how much I have changed since becoming a mum. Obviously parenthood is life changing, I didn’t expect it not to be. Now three years in there are days I think I’ve got this parenting thing sorted, mostly I don’t, but that’s life.
I have literally lost track of how many times I have said ‘I just push through it’ this week. Don’t worry, I’ll push through it. It’s OK, I can push through it. Well you know, you just push through it. Again, and again and again.
As a parent I think that’s just what you do. As a working parent I have to. as a working parent who is also working very hard to not be a working parent I have to push through it even more!
Now I’ve seen loads of people’s #rockingmotherhood lists and boy are these women rocking it. I spend so long worrying if I’m doing it right, or feeling like a down right failure (3 year old who will not use the toilet unless he’s naked, regardless of what I do and try, fail!), but as you know I am big on positivity and this tag is all about the positivity so I’m in.
I’ll be honest, L literally doesn’t need an excuse to have a dance. Any time, any place he’s up for a sing and a wiggle. So taking part in the #FrubesMoves challenge with BritMums and Yoplait Frubes was a no brainer for us.
Today he was singing Old MacDonald’s Farm, in the middle of a museum. If he’s at home he’s always asking for the music on so we can have a dance together. Let’s not even talk about the epic car singing. I mean the louder you can la, la, la to any song the better right?! At least he seems partial to Fall Out Boy and Foo Fighters.
L turned three the other weekend so to celebrate we had a little birthday party with our family.
He is happy with the attention for the day and it keeps both the cost and stress manageable for me, just, it’s still stressful filling your house with people, family or not!
Oh my word tomorrow is your birthday and you will be three years old and I literally don’t know where the time has gone.
You have changed so much this year it is hard to know what to say to you.
More than anything I want you to know how loved you are and how special you are. I hope you know this anyway and it is doesn’t need to be written down.
If you’ve been reading my blog over the last month or so you’ll have sensed a change in me. Less upbeat. More worried. Definitely more stressed. You’ll also know this is because I felt like I was losing my dream.
So now I think it’s time for a catch up. A proper one. Honest, warts and all catch up on what has been going on in my life this month. As it is real life, my real life. The reason I think most of you read this, although I’m never sure I’ll know why. But thank you so much, as the kind comments I’ve had these last few weeks have truly meant the world to me and kept me going. Continue reading Taking Risks and Making Decisions
This plus that equals…. A Very Bad Day.
Here’s the latest instalment in my series of posts all about what makes our lives here at home tick. This week is all about my very bad day, well two days. I nearly didn’t write it, but I need to vent.
You may have noticed over the last few days things have been very quiet on my blog. I’m sorry. I have been ridiculously busy. So I would like to share my shining light, Red Kooga, with you. It’s how I’ve gotten through.
For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends to help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites.
It’s crazy that last week whilst I was writing this I felt overwhelmed and stressed, today I’m feeling completely in control, happy and calm. I know that I have got this.
A simple household chore list has seemingly changed my life! That’s another story for another day though. I’m really excited about my trip to Bavaria next week for the BenQ GS1 Launch. Getting a little bit of time to myself is exactly what I need to cement this new found feeling of control.
It’s clear to me that since I have started practising mindfulness and keeping a journal that I have been able to control my emotions a lot better. I notice if my depression is getting triggered sooner. Allowing me to deal with it before it gets a hold of me.
Here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #22