Category Archives: Feeling Calm

Feeling Calm #36

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

Sorry this is a day late. Husb and I had a few days away and instead of writing this when I got home last night. I collapsed into a tired heap on the sofa with half a bottle of wine. Whoops.

I start my new job tomorrow. I have a lump in my chest. A knot of tension. I’m far from calm at this precise moment. Am I making the right decision, how much will impact our lives, things work so nicely with me at home.

All I know is we need some money and there’s no point me striving to stay at home if I don’t have a home to stay in. I hope this is just a temporary bump in the road. Only time will tell though. Wish me luck for tomorrow.

Pretty flowers in the garden
Pretty flowers in the garden, just because I feel in need of them!

Oh and as I’m typing this I get a phone call from the garage, which has my car for the fourth time over recent weeks, to be told that another car has rolled into it. I really could cry right now. When it rains it pours.

So as ever I’m focusing on the positives. Here are my 10 moments from the past 7 days, enjoy them whilst I rock slowly in a corner; Continue reading Feeling Calm #36

Feeling Calm #35

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

So in a complete shift from recent weeks I have interviewed for and accepted a job at my local supermarket. I know, I know. I want to stay at home. The thought of returning to employed life was making sob. But just at this current moment I cannot do it anymore. I need some stability and some money!

It’s been a rough few months but I feel OK about this decision. I’ll be working selling phones, so at least something I know about. It’s also only contracted for a few hours a week, so I can pick up more if I choose or not if I’m busy blogging and parenting. Should that be the other way round. Probably! I’m being way more focused about my blog. Less so about the social media work. Hopefully I’ll find a balance that works for me.

So with everything that is going on I have loved picking my top 10 moments from the past 7 days, it’s very therapeutic. So here they are; Continue reading Feeling Calm #35

Feeling Calm #34

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

I just don’t seem to be able to get a break at the moment. As soon as I think things are looking up, I get knocked back down again. Last week I felt great in my decision to focus on my Social Media Management work, now I’m back to square one with no clients and no money. Feeling incredibly foolish and selfish for turning down a perfectly good job offer.

Smelling flowers bressingham
I asked him to smell the flowers, picturing a gorgeous shot in my head, this is what he does. Bressingham

My head is all over the place and I’m just not sure I’ve got it in me to carry on with this. I’m still really focusing on my blog at the moment, which is great and bringing me a lot of satisfaction. It doesn’t make money though and I do need money. I just don’t know what my next move will be. I Just Don’t Know.

I know I could do with a bit more support at home. L is great but offering me drink from his bottle and lots of hugs whilst super cute, isn’t quite what I need. Husb tries but as he doesn’t have a positive bone in his body, honestly he doesn’t, so he isn’t exactly what I need either. Thank god for friends.

Me and one of the statues at Holt Country Park
Me and one of the statues at Holt Country Park

Despite this I’ve loved picking my top 10 moments from the past 7 days, because they’ve been flipping awesome, so here they are; Continue reading Feeling Calm #34

Feeling Calm #33

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

I’m feeling so much better this week. I decided to turn down the job I had been offered and spend some time focusing on what I really want, which is to work from home. Whether it comes good or not, who knows, but at least I’ll have tried.

Soothing Wall Fountains
Soothing Wall Fountains, I would love to have one of these

I’ve been so up and down emotionally these last few weeks I’ve really had to go back to basics with my meditation and my calm, mindfulness practices. The gratitude journal has been a blessing but I’ll admit I’d let the meditation slip a bit recently. So I’ve been making a conscious effort to do every day and it really does help me so much. I’ve been looking at things that could help me with this, nice cushions, music, I even found some amazing wall fountains from Soothing Walls, you can have inside. I shall have to dream about those for a little while though, just until I talk Husb around and sort out the work situation. I just think the sound of running water would be the most calming thing ever.

Husb has been off work this last week and is still off until Friday, so we’ve been cramming in loads of day trips and fun things with L. It’s been great going out and about and thanks to our Spree Book nearly everything has been half price. If you are in Norfolk (or any of the other places that have them) I would definitely recommend a Spree Book, literally filled with offers. I’ve been buying them for years now.

I’ve loved picking my top 10 moments from the past 7 days, they’ve been so good, so here they are; Continue reading Feeling Calm #33

Feeling Calm #32

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

I’m still really struggling this week. My emotions have been all over the place. Plenty of hiding so I can sob into a pillow and trying not to let L see it. I got the job I interviewed for, I’m just waiting for the formal offer. Trouble is I don’t want it. I really, really, really don’t want to to be an employee again. Honestly I thought that I would have enough time to pick up more clients before I got a sniff at any of the jobs I was applying for. I was only doing it to show willing. That backfired.

Now I know I’ll be spread too thinly to make anything really work. I’ve been loving blogging, mummying and running all the social accounts and building that up when I’ve had a moment. Now I’ll be working, mummying, trying to blog and working with my current client to do a great job for them but I won’t have time to give anything all the attention it needs and I know in my heart of hearts that if my new client goes that will be it for my Self Employed venture.

Hooray Beer
Hooray Beer – Turtle Bay

I’m devastated. This week more than ever writing has been my solace. The thing keeping me grounded and whilst my journal has been way more ‘ranty’ than usual, it’s still filled with my happy moments. As you can imagine, picking ten has been very therapeutic for me.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #32

Feeling Calm #31

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

You may have guessed from my posts this week I have really started to feel the strain of being self employed with no clients. That’s not to say we haven’t had fun though. I just reminding of it a bit more than usual, so I can’t tell you how much I’ve been looking forward to writing this.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #31

Feeling Calm #30

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

Mummy and son day
Mummy and son day

This week has been pretty standard. A few days just me and the boy, work, mess and a lot of pitching for new clients. It has been fun picking my favourite moments.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #30

Feeling Calm #29

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

It’s been such a frustrating week. So many potential clients interested in working with me but nothing that’s actually come through. It has been cathartic picking my favourite moments.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #29

Feeling Calm #28

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends. To help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

It’s been a normal kind of week for me. I caught up with some friends, sorted out a few bits and bobs and spent a lot of time trying to source more work to no avail. So it has been fun picking my ten moments.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #28

Feeling Calm #27

For my birthday I was given a great new book ‘Calm’ and a journal from my friends to help me find some calm in my life and to de-stress a little. I have been writing in my journal everyday and on Wednesday’s I go through the daily highlights I’ve written down and pick out my 10 favourites. 

Pretty flowers in the garden
Pretty flowers in the garden

After a string of amazing weeks it only seems fitting that things have gone terribly wrong. Having lost a major client I’m facing the very real possibility that I’ll have to return to work for a bit and put a pause on my Work from Home dream. Especially as my car has started making some very worrying and most likely expensive sounds. So it has been extra important to carry on with my gratitude journal. I need to stay focused. Remain calm and keep my balance.

So here are my top 10 moments from the past 7 days; Continue reading Feeling Calm #27