This plus that equals…. finding things difficult
Here’s the latest instalment in my series of posts all about what makes our lives here at home tick. This week is all about how I’m feeling at the moment. I’m a bit low and struggling if I’m honest. I’m finding everything difficult.
A classic starting point for me. A to do list as long as my arm but no will to do it. I will leave everything to last minute and do the absolute minimum.
It helps nothing and I’m aware I’m doing it. But I have no motivation to stop it.
A little bubble of it. Tight in the centre of my chest. All of the time.
There’s no specific reason for it though. Which makes it harder to deal with.
I’m busy at the moment. There’s a lot to be done and a lot of bog events coming up.
Some I’m looking forward to, some I very much am not. The only common ground everything has is how it is making making me feel overwhelmed.
I am just sad at the moment. A little broken. Even when I’m happy, it’s tinged with darkness.
I’ll get happier. I know I will. At the moment though I’m just sad.
Finding Things Difficult
Everything is hard at the moment. Doing anything other than sitting on the sofa is hard.
Even the simplest of things I’m finding difficult. Housework. Parenting. Getting dressed. To the outside world I’m fine. I can do what needs to be done. I can function. It’s just really difficult.
I know I’ll get through this phase. It’s not the first time I’ve felt this way. It won’t be the last. It’s also by no means the worst it’s been. I’m pretty good at coping with this and managing my feelings. Say hello to step one, acknowledging them and writing. Step two is getting over what’s triggered this, so for that roll on October. In the mean time, I just need people to cut me some slack.
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